The oddest thing happened to me this morning; I woke up, stretched, stared out the window, and took a full ten seconds to realize where I was- in my old bedroom in the original A-town, Amarillo TX. This is definitely an adjustment. You'd think that between the graduation ceremony, the awful finals, the surreal packing experience, and the myriad of painful goodbyes that reality would have begun to sink in before now. Nope. I don't think that before this morning I truly realized that I would never be going back- to college, to Austin, to my apartment, to my best friends. Now I've seemed to develop a little bit of an insomnia problem (btw I'm writing this at 4:30AM), and I've experienced my share of anxiety attacks, but I'm ready to take a stand. Sometimes we seem to get so caught up in the past that we can't enjoy the gifts God has given us in the here and now. I'm the type of person who can let even a little bit of life past me by without a sense of regret; so my new plan is to let it go. I just don't think I could forgive myself for skimming over this short period of my life, transitional as it may be. So here I am world...bring it on.
"So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matthew 6:34
2 comments:
I don't think its even hit me yet...I bet it will when I don't go back to Austin next semester. Its crazy-hard to grow up. You are so strong, Shivonne, that's something I truly admire about you. You have such a great attitude and positive aura about you...I adore you and hope I can be as brave as you someday!
shivvy my baby! you go girl. get it on. youre about to shake london up!
looooooooooooove you. xoxoxoxooxoxoxox
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